I recently spent a wonderful evening with an astrologer, Pat Kaluza. This was my first experience at having a complete reading done. Beyond the insightful information and nurturing support that her intuitive abilities offered me, I was once again fulfilled by the awareness that the answers to the quest for my spirituality lie within myself. By this I do not mean to be grandiose in ignoring that there is power and energy greater than myself. But I am firmly acknowledging that my ability to be connected with Spirit is based on the essence that I am a spiritual being.
The image that is strong for me is that of how we float in water. We are buoyant because our bodies are 50 - 70% water. Being substantially of the same material, we maintain nearly the same density. This quality allows us to be supported, uplifted, and provided for by the water. We don't float because we are good people, or lead a perfect life, or are enlightened. We float because it is our nature to float. This holds true whether we are in a bathtub or the middle of the ocean.
I believe that our ability to be supported and provided for by Spirit and the Universe is similar, in that we are substantially spiritual beings (probably 50 - 70%). The gifts of prosperity, love and spiritual fulfillment are all available to us all, because it is in our essential nature to experience them. Being made up of the same fabric as Spirit, offers us the ability to be spiritually "buoyant".
Then why do we at times experience life with such doubt, confusion and sense of spiritual separateness. I think some insight is offered in understanding how people drown.
Most would think that drowning is caused by water. Yet, a dolphin is constantly buoyant in water, only needing to come to the surface to draw a breath of air through the blow hole in the back of it's head. As humans the only substantial difference in our ability to remain buoyant in water is that our "blow hole" is in the front of our head.
In drowning the fear turned to panic causes the person to attempt to claw their way out the water. The reality is that water will support the person. If they could calmly accept its support and bob to the surface for a periodic breath of air they would be safe. The delusion that the water is the danger invites the self-defeating behavior of attempting to get up into the air which can not support the body. The continual struggle of escaping the water eventually results in the person becoming so fatigued that they no longer have the strength to bring their "blow hole" to the surface. They then end up drowning by breathing in water.
How often in our lives have we chosen struggle over acceptance ? How often do we perceived letting go and surrender as loss ? How often have we searched for answers outside ourselves ? How often have we tried to change others, so we would be OK ?
What if we accepted our experiences as natural lessons for our growth ? What if we perceived loss as the natural process of releasing what we do not need anymore ? What if we searched within ourselves for the capacity to receive the prosperity that always exists ? What if if we realized that we are innately OK ?
Would we then be able to maintain the spiritual playfulness that dolphins seem to manifest ? Enjoy your swim !